I am interested in the shift between how a woman is seen and how she sees herself. The tension that arises between the internal and external constructs of female identity is an undercurrent that shapes my life. I turn to Virginia Woolf, as I have many times, and to her novel Mrs. Dalloway in particular, not just for inspiration but for companionship. Here, inside this fiction of a friendship, I flourish with perceived validation and I see, maybe for the first time, a pervading silence.
In Resonance, I am referencing autobiographical moments and rhythmic patterns of self-reflection. There is a natural oscillation between intimacy and aloofness, longing and withdrawal, time and space, then and now. Within each moment of being I am identifying an essential value, something concrete and material, to represent ideas of protected intimacy and a perpetual distancing from the self. I call upon a veneer of vulnerability and conventionality as a purposeful appliqué in protecting one’s own privacy though out the lifelong process of needing and being needed. Inside this space sexuality and strength emerge outside a framework of prescribed behaviors designed to empower men.
The use of pink allows me to flow in and out of public and private female sensibilities and to connect a collection of moments into a chronology dictated by impact. The color itself hinting at a presence, attaching and recoiling from an implied cast of others. I also look to the physics of waves, a major motif in Mrs. Dalloway, as a structural foundation for my image making. Waves ascribe to the patterning of emotional fluctuation and the perpetuity of endurance. I am constructing a rhythm, like waves, like breath, to the act of being a woman.